I’m normally not a big fan of “reality tv”. I don’t know why, I just tend to dabble in it, never really getting too involved in any one show. I think it’s mostly because my schedule is so unpredictable that if I get caught up in something, I’m sure to miss it the next week and even more sure to forget to DVR it ahead of time!
Tonight was no different as I sat down at the kitchen counter with my laptop. My routine is to turn on the laptop, turn on the TV, tune out the TV and work on the laptop until I can’t keep my eyes open anymore. My choice of background noise tonight was “The X Factor”. That’s the Simon Cowell spin off of American Idol and this year features Brittney Spears as one of the celebrity judges. Perfect mindless background noise for me to burn right through my “to-do list” – or so I thought…
All was progressing smoothly until a young, 22-year old from the “South Side of San Antonio” walked on the stage. The producers did a great job of featuring her and her family’s back-story about the tough life they’ve had. Another hard-luck life story to tug at your emotions I think. These reality shows are so full of them that sometimes it gets a little predictable you know? In no way am I minimizing her story. We all have stories and experiences that have shaken us to the core and shape us into who we are, but this girl was different. Why you ask? This girl chose a song that moved her. It spoke to her and it spoke to me. It speaks to so many who have struggled and still struggle with pain and loss and learning to live through it. She sang it with such passion that it stopped me in my tracks.
The song is “Nobody Knows” by Pink.
The lyrics are below and the link to the video is attached.
I hope that you know that although it sometimes feels as if nobody knows, there are a lot of us out there who do know…
“Nobody Knows”
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I’m asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no
Nobody likes
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No
Baby
Oh the secret’s safe with me
There’s nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don’t it feel like I’m all alone
Who’s gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I’ve lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares
It’s win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no
Baby
Oh the secret’s safe with me
There’s nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don’t it feel like I’m all alone
Who’s gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I’ve lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no
Tomorrow I’ll be there my friend
I’ll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no
Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
The way I do when I’m lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me
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